Sunday, March 16, 2014

seeking

My prayer these days is-

Please teach me to see that people are more important than their choices.
Grace upon grace upon grace...

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Selflessness. Bravery.

These two themes flow through my thoughts often these days. It may have all started with yet another relentlessly addicting book (Divergent), but it has inspired some truly great channels of thought. (And, to my credit, I'm still savoring the first book, waiting a few weeks before I devour the next one. The anticipation is one of the best parts.)
Thoughts like: What ARE my fears, really? Maybe it's a sign that my life is too comfortable, if I can't easily identify them. Or - after marinating on this thought for a few days - I concluded that perhaps I really don't live my life in fear. Not that I have no fears, but that most days they're a healthy distance away from me. Maybe, maybe, I can strike that from the list of negative habits to break.

One of my Lenten meditations is to imagine each day that I have a great capacity for selflessness. I have realized that every day I am given what must be one hundred opportunities to be selfless, and how many of them do I take? And of the ones that I take, how often do I still hold bitterness in my heart?

But there is life still in these dry bones. And I am capable of grace.

So I remind myself that we can all use an extra helping of graciousness and understanding from our fellow humans... And maybe my feet will grow to be more deeply rooted in the God of grace.